the SMALL things...

ayte people, i just came back from singapore, and from every trip there is always a story or experiences to share kan kan kan!!!!

'iye' jawapannya. xD

so here's a few SMALL things that may seem big to some people like me xD:

1) never ever put perfume or soap to ur jewel or batu2 bracelet.

2) tak semestinye u pi singapore, the place FULL OF H1N1 U must wear the mask, because i didnt, the air hostess and my fam didnt, and so as the other tourists, tapi KALAU KENE JGN SAMAN MY BLOG. sebenarnye, molek lah if u wear it. teeeheee~

3) if u wanna spend money kan and shop its advisable if u DONT bring along a calculator to *tit tot tit tot* calculating away and convert every item's price. but dont be like me pula, bawak calculator tp tak guna, balik rumah, aik??? 'where is my rm1000'??? 'im sure i didnt use it sampai habes??!?"

haaa ini tidak mahu berlaku, but u know what, satu sen pun i tak regret because SINGAPORE IS A SHOPPING HEAVEN. and im not a shoopaholic ok... (sometimes)

okayy dats all..!! take care and spend carefully ok! $$$$$$

i turned down the DEVIL today

alahai senangnye la nak masuk neraka, seriously..
well its today actually...
camnih..
hari ini awal2 lagi syaitan ajak aku tidak solat subuh,
selepas itu, aku tertewas... yes, dengan sedihnya and pedihnya.. saya tertingal solat subuh
ini bukan untuk celebrate, tapi untuk mendukai...
pedih mengenangkannya..
bagaimana aku nak digelar mujahidah sedangkan solat pun boleh tertinggal
selepas itu, sms berdering dengan riang pukul 11 am...
deringan dari panggilan syaitan, memikat hati saya ini dengan AYAT- AYAT CINTA lelaki bukan mahram...
mengajak ku ke lembah neraka...
aku telah memakai pakaian cantik dan lansung ke dalam bas ke KLCC
dalam bus aku mendapat dorongan ILAHI,
terus aku tekan hruf berkata kepada lelaki itu supaya CANCEL AJA ke KLCC

aku lega.......

terus aku menulis ini... wahai rakan- rakan, tahukah kamu betapa sedihnya aku tinggal solat.
andai aku mati, tiada apa yg mampuku bawa bersama..
tahukah kalau aku keluar bersama lelaki itu, bertapa byk lagi dosa akan melarat2 ibarat barah
lepas satu, satu lagi dosa.. in the end, we are TRAPPED.



tak tahu sampai bila aku akan terus lega.. doakanlah.. saya doakan kamu semua juga.
inshallah. mulakan dgn bersihkan hatimu.

back to square 1

have u ever felt, ON TOP OF A MOUNTAIN??

then SUDDENLY, your down in the dumps.

u say to urself " y am i here??"

u hear urself replied 'i DONT NOE!!!'

THE QUESTION HERE IS : IS THERE STILL TIME TO IMPROVE? WHAT IS THE FIRST STEP?

the answer is simple : back to the basics. bersihkan semula hatimu shereen ,yg kotooooorrrrrrr itu.

(ps: perbualan diri dgn iman di dada..... tsk tsk..)

saya rasa nak kurus la

wokay! its the time now to SLIM DOWN!!!

yup2. I have this chubby body of mine that needs workout. N most of all, look good. *ching2*

my plan: 

1) no oily food (ayam goreng cemara!! macamane nih??)

2)no chocolate( tadi baru makan j.co shazana, haizz)

3) no rice, mmg culprit terbesa( takminat pownn, suke mee) -jgn tertipu, nasi masih ada di us...

4) and makan oats!!xDD

5) puasa rejab and shaaban FULL!!

You must wondering what has gotten into me, and usually i dont discuss this kinda things because well.. its PRIVATE kot. tah. teehee

However, I wanna tell u people how human am I and how ungrateful I am. yes, im ungrateful.

I shud bersyukur..I am, but makin myself fit and looking good is my way to show to Allah how I am grateful that he gave me this body and I am taking good care of it. xD

INFACT, I THINK MUSLIM SHOULD LOOK THE BEST BECAUSE OF THE 'BERSYUKUR' CONCEPT. dun u tink so, kan? hehe

i always ask tipah my roomate, 'eh i look ok or not wearing this or that' sometimes i even tend to compare with strangers. ghahaha.

(i wonder kalau ada stranger yg compare with me? xPpP)

Looking good to me is NEVER ABOUT THE BOYS, yup sebab, kalau laki tuh ske kite sbb BODYNYA, baik toksah JELING pun kat laki camtuh, itula ciri2 laki tingalkan bini and kwin dengan perempuan mynmar mane tah.. hehe xD (assumption is baddd) and sememangnya bukan sbb nak pakai baju saiz baby or jeans size 0 ( yes, bj loose and menutupi aurat sudeyy)

bahagia je aku pakai baju loose and menutupi aurat. takde sesak nafas + kalau mati on the spot takpe + atau bole solat pakai baju tuh = hidup yang bahagia.

Hidup nih best kalau dinikmati dengan keredhaan Allah and tokse risau sal orghe lain pikir ghapo. 

I wanna lose weight sbb i :

1) i want to be healthy and look good.

2) baju semakin longgar.

3) menjadi lebih2 bersyukur xpPp

Hidup nih tak lame kat dunia pun, buat je la ala kadar.. yg penting ibadah yg wajib MESTI DIUTAMAKAN. inshallah.. xD beauty is not skin deep, it comes from an enlightened heart and a warm smile. xD (smile sokmo) ahahhaha

Allah suka akan kecantikkan! Jadi u all, jom jadi tantik ramai2!! xD

the reason why I QUIT ATUSA..

The reason why I quit atusa

Just in case u don’t know what is atusa, it’s this society for American bound students.

And yes, I was lucky enough to win the spot as president for 3 semesters. Haha, so unexpectedly kan? Why? Because, firstly, I’m not a famous figure : I can’t sing, dance, my grades are just normal, I hang out mostly among the girls and obviously I’m not the ‘hot’ type of girl in intec and some people doesn’t even know that I exist!
And for your information when I was a junior, I HAD NEVER ATTENDED ANY ATUSA WORLD IDOL, DINNER OR WHATSOEVER… it’s not that I’m anti –social, but tah tanak pergi. hahaha
So, what should I say: Alhamdulillah…

For the first semester, the focus was mainly about sports. It was still ok for me and tried my best of course to deal with things and people and owh boy wasn’t THINGS are easier to handle than PEOPLE. Haha. Tooo many hardships and happy memories to rekindle, but lets just push that aside first ayte.
The reasons I quit atusa for the previous semester are because:


The activities:
Activities like Halloween for example, its against my will, because in Islam, our sworn enemies are THE SAITANS, and during Halloween, those evil are being celebrated, realized it or not, Allah forbids it. And most of all, I get no benefit from it. Im sorry if whoever is reading this is not a muslim, this is not meant for u, no hard feelingS ok. xD

Other than that, the activities needed loads of planning and my time. For what? I just don’t get the point of discussing and wreaking my brain to find the best spot for people could eat, dance and have fun and play games. I believe that an organization of our age should focus more on charity work, helping others and indulge ourselves with issues like poverty, the middle east war, and human rights. We should be handling campaigns and stuff like that to broaden our minds and encourage big thinkers. Allah would love that. I would love that.
Im not saying what atusa did was wrong. But im saying what I wanted from atusa. I love the people and the committee, they were very helpful and kind. I guess I was just too ambitious. However, nothing is going to stop me. But I realized atusa is not going to make my dreams come true. And so, I stepped out.

Since that very day, I had never felt sorry for myself because even Tun Dr Mahathir had also quit umno a few times before creating history. And I believe im just following his footsteps. Im the type of person who had never doubted Allah’s creation, that is human beings. Human beings can create wonders, and with Allah’s blessing I will too!


After two years in atusa, I still haven’t been going to any of its activities like world idol, and the lastest is the walk to stardom, it’s not that its bad, but It’s bad for me as a muslim. It does not bring benefit for me as a muslim. Allah doesn’t encourage the freely mixture between boys and girls that are not mahram for no important reasons, and so I stand to abide Him. Allah tak bagi pergi ke tempat yang melalaikan dan menghiburkan diri semata- mata. Adakah kita even layak nak memuaskan hati kita. Sedangkan hati kita takkan pernah terasa puas dengan keseronokan dunia, malah hati ciptaan Allah ini juga yang memerlukan ketenangan.

Kadangkala kita perlu berhenti sebentar dan berfikir, what have I done? Is it for my nafsu or Allah. Look, no one is pushing u. there are always 2 choices, yes or no. Its up to u. Jangan salahkan orang lain kalau kerana kau tersilap langkah dan masuk ke dalam neraka. Sila jangan salahkan orang lain.

Its not that after quitting atusa I became stagnant. Makan, tido, belajar, solat, mandi.
No,no,no. I have the freedom to do anything I want. I went for Palestine talks, met people, gathered them and instilled ourselves with knowledge of islam and righteousness. Went for outdoors but still not just an empty activity, we stopped and read the quran together and tried understanding it. I have created platonic sisterhood with variety of people from, ukm, unim, marabanting, taylors, monash and many more just under one roof and understanding and faith that is called ISLAM. I am not and never alone. Its not that I’ve develop into an extremist, but Islam has taught me to become a better person, inner and outer. It gives me happiness no money could buy. Plus, it gives me meaning to my life, entirely.

Eventhough in my IC is Islam BUT I have gotten the true islam or hidayah or ‘light’ when I was in intec. Yes. And im thankful for that. xD There is a big difference between knowing and UNDERSTANDING islam.
Since the day I walked out of atusa, I NOE MANY PEOPLE HAVE MADE BAD PERCEPTIONS ABOUT ME. Hehe. I have my sources, but I don’t care. People will always talk, talk, and talk.
They will like and hate or both at the same time. Haha. As long as Allah loves and likes what im doing, im satisfied, and with that, Im always at peace.
Dear friends, please do not be hurt because of my words, it wasn’t meant to be harsh or prejudice or shallow. Just my thoughts that you may have missed upon pondering.


Lots of love: ex atusa’s president, fall 2009.

oiii umat islam!! kurang ajar kamu ya~

Salam kawanku out there!

kalau ikutkan mata aku nih dah nak tutp sangat. sedang aku tulis nih, mata dah tertutup setengah ala garfield dah, tapi bezanya dia kucing tak reti tulis blog!

tetapi mesti juga aku tulis apa yang aku rasa sekarang. huh MARAH, KESAL, KECEWA dengan siapa u might ask? Dengan manusia bertopengkan ISLAM. bagi diriku ini yang sangat naif, kalau nak mengaku agama kamu tuh islam, baik KAMU laksanakan, BE A TRUE ISLAM, terus aku teringat ayat ini, tak silap aku 2:208, tak pasti ayat lengkap dan malas nak bukak quran sekarang, tapi kalau tak silap aku, Allah berpesan agar umat islam MASUK ISLAM SECARA KESELURUHAN!!! All of ur might, kawan2 ku syg, janganlah sekali2 takut untuk mati kerana islam... pls la.. mane semangat jihadmu??

aku betul2 sedih nih, sedih melihat umat, sedih dengan diri aku yang seolah2 tidak mampu menukar pape>>?!??@??@
Aku sememagnya seorang yang relaks, tapi kalau aku tgk umah islam sendiri BANGGA MELANGGAR SURUHAN ALLAH, memaparkan gambar2 lucah dan hina di internet ( YES, SLEEVELESS ATAU HOT PANTS IS LUCAH!SBB ALLAH KATE TUTUP AURAT), bangga dengan PACARAN YANG HARAM mereka( ooo berfolder2 dalam fbk tuh eh..takpe2 itu hanya permainan syaitan yang paling best, aku tahu pernah ada pengalaman) aku rasa tewasss, aku rasa umat islam tewass

Andai kata esok, rabbi2 christian atau jew mengasak kepala kita dengan senapang dan menyruh kita convert ke agama mereka, berapa bilangan orangkah yang akan tetap bertahan dan sanggup mati untuk islam??? tetapi, tidak perlu mereka berbuat begitu kawan2, kerana, hakikatnya ramai melayu islam yang sudah kafir..ramai kawan ku senior dulu dan sekarang, minum arak, dah pregnant( jgn ingat pegang tangan takleh pregnant ok, itu lah first step nak dapat baby, gogogo!), pakai baju ciptaan syaitan, kawan ngan lelaki macam setan, haizzz sorrie, tapi geram sgt nih.
kat mane islam nih??? ada siapa yang masih practise islam tak, kalau ada pls anta email kat saye.. pls! jom ramai2 pindah pi mars... haizz.
yang pelik nye kat fbk nih kan, sah2 gambar tuh gambar bf kiss pipi gf, ada lak MANGKUK komen waaa soo sweettttt. nMangkuk btul! woii, ape aku nampak adalah ....
haizz malas nak menghina malam2 nih

aku tekad, selepas ini aku nampak je gambar tak senonoh mmg aku tegur, ready, get set, go! weeeee~ inshallah.

ps: i plea, just open ur heart to accept Allah in ur life, and He'll come. just like He came to me.

im really tired of crying at night. mata esok bengkak. haizzz

whateverlah life is trying to tell me??

the whole thing about dying shundnt be concile as a loss, but more of a victory.
assessment done and so be it.
the whole thing about starting over is not by the actions prematurely but by the change of heart and wholesomeness.
the whole thing about dieting and looking good is never subtle if proclaimed by to please people, but to feel the awesomeness of self control.

be the master of live, and yourself. but desire to be controlled only by Allah.